As part of this mission, r/podcasts is curated to promote respectful and on-topic discussions. This is not a place to promote your podcast. Even the sister does. Or experiencing fulfillment. God didnt design humans, then sit back and say We done good because before Him stood a gaggle of filthy wretches. I was just over here trying to plan a wedding in 3 months determined to do it with a fraction of a normal budget. Update. One moment his extended family was super close in a way I could never understand. In the next, it wasnt worth visiting them because they were going to kick the bucket soon. Something Was Wrong When Sara got engaged, she thought she was marrying the Christian man of her dreams. First, however, I had to allow Him to pick up the pieces of a shattered sense of self, and reconstruct my concept of what I have to contribute to the world around me. We are all capable of being obedient, and in my case thats all God has been asking of me. Without something to work toward, we wither. Bear with me as this site goes through growing pains. Show Notes: Bravery doesnt require the absence of fear. Some of my darkest days have been marked by a unique sense of His presence I dont feel other times. Recommended by media. 1:54:06. On my off days, when Im not focused on how God sees me, I feel pretty basic and unoriginal. Often times, this season of transition and healing can feel like punishment for doing the right thing. Then it uses those keys to wreak havoc where trust was carefully built. Theyre doing the heavy lifting when it comes to compiling my story for the public, not just for its sheer shock-factor, but because Im far from the only victim of psychopathic abuse. Humans are hardwired to need a vision, a hope of something more, something bigger than ourselves to invest in and be part of. We support artists from around the world, who create works speaking to inclusion, feminism, equality, wellness, and other important social issues to both promote diversity in media & spread ideas that encourage openness. When I regained control and came out, he looked at me like I was crazy. This is a really great podcast that delves into very important issues. Some might be a complex mix of both sides depending on the day and their mood or emotional state. I thought they were deleting all comments identifying him? We find our own ways to ask, Am I enough?. He doesnt want a casual connection- He wants our fire, our very worst AND best. (Opus. *Sources: Yahoo News: Womans boyfriend claimed to be an FBI agent, but she felt something was off: 'I cant answer that', In The Know, December 19, 2022: https://www.yahoo.com/lifestyle/womans-boyfriend-claimed-to-be-an-fbi-agent-but-she-felt-something-was-off-232932588.html Jenna Jeans Tik Tok: @JennaJean8 https://www.tiktok.com/@jennajean8/video/7171129904665218350 For free and confidential resources, please visit: somethingwaswrong.com/resources S15 Artwork by the amazing Sara Stewart @GreaterThanOkay - Instagram.com/greaterthanokayTo purchase SWW merch, please visit: represent.com/store/somethingwaswrong. We belong to Him. Read reviews and listen to Something Was Wrong on Chartable. You can listen to new episodes early and ad-free on Amazon Music included with Prime. I think that sums up my most recent thoughts in the recovery process, but I went a tad further and wrote things out on the flight to Nashville last weekend since Im trying to get better at sharing my process and the annual renewal fee for this website just hit my bank account. Thats how Ive felt about writing again. Truth broke walls I couldnt scale and I will never turn away from it nor forget its power to rescue. Something Was Wrong is an Iris Award-winning true-crime docuseries about the discovery, trauma, and recovery from shocking life events and abusive relationships. (IM SORRY JOHN & STACI I blatantly judged your book by its cover. This is often why I believe He allows hardship- not that He is the direct cause of bad or difficult times, but His nearness is undeniably different when were in pain and we need Him. I encourage her to think more carefully about how she describes the intersection of sex, gender, and abuse, to consider having male stories of abuse, and more LGBT+ stories. I think they sort of gave up policing people. There are days Im content in that, and days I just want it to look different and throw a grownup fit. S1 E7: We're Done, I'm Running, You're Insane, S1 E9: Unencumbered by the Weight of Women. Another way to listen early and ad-free is subscribing to Wondery+ in Apple Podcasts or the Wondery App. Im 1 of the ppl screaming "whats his real name? All excuses, brain-washing, and influences melted away. I know His timing is perfect but Ifeel irritated. Press J to jump to the feed. Until one week before their wedding when she learned - something was wrong. Classified Ads. I didn't wait until everything was perfect to go live, and since then I've thrown my hands up and let it roll. Something Was Wrong is an award winning docuseries podcast about the discovery, trauma and recovery of being engaged to a sociopath. Youll see information about Young Living and probably food, cause it matters to me and Iplan my travels based on the destinations snacks. A good Father does not take away to leave a permanent void. When we receive the gift of what Jesus did for us,He isnt looking at our shortcomings, so why should we? S1 E2: It Was Weird. The series is told through the lens of the survivor so if you aren't One thing at the forefront of my thoughts right now is the fear I know a lot of women around me are facing, and the choices they are making in the midst of it. Happy to be an "enmeshed parent." Quite a few people Ive spoken to say that they feel stuck for the sake of their children, or because the signs of abuse arent publicly visible. And have control issues. As Slyvias symptoms worsen, so do Tees suspicions that Sylvia is hiding something. It is out of those days that our roots are deepened in their search for water. Physical abuse is evil, but emotional abuse is insidious as it hides, especially with gaslighting involved. Suddenly his explanation changed from claiming he hadnt said it, to having said it but Id completely misread the whole thing. If its His word, He will back it and ensure it doesnt return empty. . As all of this was hot and fresh, my godmother sat me down and formally requested that I read a book called Captivating by John & Staci Eldredge. Aww honey, you just thats not what I said! Ohhhh me. I've honestly had a fantastic career so far, working alongside brilliant people for the best brands in the world. Have you asked yourself why something just feels inexplicably wrong, confusing, and overwhelming? ), (There were too many blinders on at that point to recognize that life will ALWAYS throw curveballs testing the patience of myself and the person Im with. Season 7. So how quickly did I choose other things once church was canceled? With our spiritual buffets closed down, those who know how to fuel themselves from the Word, sending their roots down deep to find the truth in bedrock when it feels elusive are having to. Ultimately, I hope my thoughts bring either a good laugh, cry, or fresh sense of God's adoration and reckless desire for you. Its very real. To a fault, I will assume someone meant the best but simply made a mistake. Thats all, folks! Instead of the thorn shall come up the cypress; instead of the brier shall come up the myrtle; and it shall make a name for the Lord, an everlasting sign that shall not be cut off.. If I was upset, hed wind up saying, maybe I did ___ to you [yet to be proven], but YOU did ____, ____, and ____ to ME!. It was very beautiful, covered in blossoming vines and beautiful flowers, but it was a wall. For those who are in recovery and by some chance are reading this, gosh I hope this stream of raw consciousnesshelps in some way. *Content warning: emotional and sexual abuse. I was in shock for several blocks while he bounced up and down in the drivers seat like a big kid in a puddle. New comments cannot be posted and votes cannot be cast. (My piano teacher would laugh at that now because of a comment I made about it while facing each other from across two grand pianos.). Thank goodness, because without their constructive input, I never would have taken a good hard look at things and asked myself what I could have done differently! (Sorry to barge onto ur Twitter but just searched "something was wrong podcast" & saw ur tweet) Not everyone fit this mold, but highschool me received it this way.) That the ground beneath our feet doesnt feel the same and were somehow powerless against it? Curated Podcasts. My brain hurt and I wondered if Id found its capacity when I was informed that it was now time to change the physical look of my hands while they were doing the impossible. A classic N doesnt want sympathy because they view themselves as above it. I remember my piano instructor taking me so far beyond what I thought a piece could possibly require from a pianists hands and brain. So many of us are so focused on getting our stories out there that we forget that becoming known has consequences. I closed the door and sat down, turning the fan and faucet on so he wouldnt hear me crying and praying. There are a few reasons why, but one of the most problematic is the host both explicitly and implicitly stating that abuse is a gendered phenomena always in the direction of males abusing females (including in non-physical methods of abuse). Something Was Wrong is an Iris Award-winning true-crime docuseries about the discovery, trauma, and recovery from shocking life events and abusive relationships. Those that lacked depth or true relationship with God are lost and floundering. And having been set free from sin, and having become slaves of God -Rom 6:22. Join the 10,000+ others who are already getting their weekly dose of inspiration for writing delivered directly to their inbox every Monday morning. Something Was Wrong is an award winning docuseries podcast about the discovery, trauma and recovery of being engaged to a sociopath. Learn more about your ad choices. *Content warning: sexual, physical and emotional violence involving children, childhood abuse, sexual abuse of a child, rape, child sex abuse materials, human trafficking, and suicide. This is not a place to promote your podcast. Studying him and being sensitive, I set the grocery bags on the ground to hug him and was met with stony silence. That was a very basic version of why I kept going and didnt run for the hills when little things shifted. YOU matter. There's a special place in hell for that guy. Amy shares a personal story of pain, healing, survival and her search for justice. Something Was Wrong: A Podcast About A Woman Who Called Off Her Wedding With A Sociopath | by Carrie Wynn | Fearless She Wrote | Medium Write 500 Apologies, but something went wrong on our. When that light feels like a pinpoint, we have to lean in closer and He is faithful to meet us there. With a list of reasons why he shouldnt pick them up, or boldly jumping into his arms with excitement? That dude wouldn't still be breathing if it was my daughter. Something Was Wrong is an Iris Award-winning true-crime docuseries about the discovery, trauma, and recovery from shocking life events and abusive relationships. It happens to have twists that make for great listening, which only gets it to more ears that might need to hear it. Surely if hed written those letters he wouldnt be sloppy enough to leave it open on a laptop hed be letting me use? A gaslightingvictim is fed just enough truth to make them more accepting of a lie, like hiding a dogs medication in a treat. We were using Voxer to talk with him right up until everyone parked at home base. I was so excited for an entire weekend with a couple of my favorite people! Christian friends, were not being spoon-fed anymore. He also called people out and shocked a culture by giving women a voice. *Content warning: Substance Use Disorder, emotional abuse, sexual assault, workplace abuse. Press J to jump to the feed. *Content warning: Physical and sexual violence, rape. A dog I adored (he physically abused and terrorized her), a home I admired daily, roommates who made life a blast and a neighborhood I would sit and breathe deep in. The answer is absolutely yes. Play Im sorry, podcast listeners: It was in that same Blue Bottle on a Thursday afternoon that I saw one of the letters Bryan and Kimmy sent me on his laptop screen. I could fart and hed call it blessed. It makes no sense to outside observers; it can even appear counterintuitive to fight fear with stillness. Tee is happy to help out her close friend and coworker, Slyvia, when she becomes sick. (Including but doubtfully limited to: texting me as 2 friends (a married couple with kids) that hed completely fabricated since week 2, and seeing other women at the same time via different dating apps than hed said hed been on when we met. That the ground beneath our feet doesnt feel the same and were somehow powerless against it? Its not gonna just go away. Jesus did all this so we could be restored to our Father. New comments cannot be posted and votes cannot be cast. 6h. The vileness of words spoken in the final couple of months, contrasted with the soft, loving words that originally sucked me in made me nauseated. That SAME song always, is so indescribably bad. or to justify a divorce to their church. A docuseries podcast about the discovery, trauma and recovery of being engaged to a sociopath. Ive seen friends I grew up with walk away from church and I firmly believe this had a lot to do with it. For free and confidential resources, please visit: somethingwaswrong.com/resourcesS15 Artwork by the amazing Sara Stewart @GreaterThanOkay - Instagram.com/greaterthanokayTo purchase SWW merch, please visit: represent.com/store/somethingwaswrongSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info. Itll never fit. Take me back to the beginning every single day. Sara discusses the discovery of Dick's ex girlfriends and how answers help the healing process. Enter your email address to receive notifications of new posts! Find similar podcasts. Rather than bottle everything up and ruin our lovely afternoon together, I shouldve communicated better in order for him to simply explain so we could move on. Its a new effort to come to the Lord and let Him be something new to me: the place I bring my injustices and frustration. Welcome to the Official Crime Junkie Store! This is why isolation vs. community involvement is a big factor here. (I thank God for my lil bubble community all the time, by the way.). I said when can we start?! [deleted] 4 yr. ago. In a healthy relationship, how does a typical child run to their dad? Welcome to a spiritual war. Thank goodness, because without their constructive input, I never would have taken a good hard look at things and asked myself what I could have done differently! To let Him tell me its ok to feel anger, and, surprise: learn about His anger on my behalf. I was born in Colorado and am very thankful to call Denver home with my wife & dog. Just ten years after being. It is that simple. I definitely was emotional and thankful, but they still talk about the grand scale of his reaction and how uncomfortable it made everyone. I have plenty of work I can get done. I was devastated and scrambling to recover whatever Id done wrong. 3 for any nerds curious.) Ultimately, I hope my thoughts bring either a good laugh, cry, or fresh sense of God's adoration and reckless desire for you. Somehow hed known this comment would get under my skin. Until the week before her wedding when she learned - something w . Until one week before their wedding when she learned - something was wrong. Hours later when Id suggest we cook at home to save money, he would insist we eat dinner at the most expensive sushi restaurant in Sacramento. His toxic work environment was taking a toll. I was stunned. Responded as if I could do no wrong because he was in awe of everything. They use the good to outweigh the bad, especially if there are no outward signs. For fans of the podcast, Something Was Wrong, you may recognize Sara from Season 1. It scared me numerous times. They pointed out how it was technically inaccurate because it was taken out of context. I dont believe things have gotten the worst they will get because I dont think the church is quite desperate enough. If for some reason you always walk away from time with someone feeling like you have a lot of self-work to do instead of feeling bolstered and encouraged, take heed and maybe put your running shoes on. We went about our work date, my heart racing and mind running wild. The other day, a line from one of Steffany Gretzingers songs was floating around in my head all day. All I remember is apologizing just to end the mess, him chuckling at my overreacting while continuing to fold clothes, and our night moving on. I just started listening, so I haven't gotten to the wackiness about the boyfriend, but the sister is A LOT. When my story is released to the public, in all its true-crimey-ness, Im thrilled to know that it will ultimately point to the miracle He did in rescuing me. Charts. She was about to marry a dude that duped her into becoming friends with people that he created out of thin air, and unprovoked kicked and injured a dog. Your body is exhausting itself, constantly on edge/in fight-or-flight, trying to figure out your footing and what is up vs. down. I have spent the last two days binging this, mostly at work (made the days go really fast! For free and confidential resources, please visit: somethingwaswrong.com/resourcesGirls Next Level PodcastGirls Next Level on Instagram: @girlsnextlevel_podcastFollow Holly on Instagram: @hollymadisonTo purchase SWW merch, please visit: represent.com/store/somethingwaswrongArtwork by the amazing Sara Stewart @GreaterThanOkay - Instagram.com/greaterthanokaySee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info. Am I brave enough to chase what I want, or scarier yet, let go of something less? It preys on their loves, their treasured secrets, by celebrating them. Its taken me nearly a year to break apart and analyze every mystery, every gut-punch, every moment of confusion. He actually laughed, shaking his head! When Im desperate for something, I remember Him and draw close. Use the prompts, write for 5-20 minutes each day and youll be amazed at how quickly you make progress on your book. [Alice + John + Naomi] You Wouldn't Believe It. Its fine! Dick was definitely an abuser no doubt but it seems like every single guy she dates they have a problem with. This is my neighborhoodanyone know his name? The idea of him turning right back around seemed ludicrous. Even fears of those tightly-held dreams of having a family or significant other not happening or being shelved. Sorry not sorry, youre rigur, Just finished episode 4. Without it, as Scripture says, we die out. Hed research and educate himself on whatever it was so he could talk about it with me. And her family is definitely extracan you say ENMESHED PARENTING.but to each his own. What I didnt know was even with everything I was feeling, I was still a little numb, and safely so. If we see what He does: Him in us? Hed give me a hug or kiss, then playfully push me away like he was discarding me and look back like he expected me to come back for more. This discounts and erases the experiences of male victims of all ages, as well as female victims who have been abused by other females and males who have been abused by males. Its very real.). This scenario doubles as an example of gaslighting: He was folding clothes by my bed one evening and said, Well Id never share a secret with you. I paused what I was doing and looked up, surprised, wondering where he was going with this. Anyone who knows me well knows that I play devils advocate for just about anyone. Internet armchair experts can put their thumbs to work all day long declaring the red flags I should have seen right away. It was healing, though, to go back to the beginning and understand how I could have fallen for such an insidious trap. I literally came on here looking for someone else to validate my feelings on this - thank you! Most of them are a bit extra IMO, lol. !" bc wanna Google the MF. He always meets me. Audible $0.00 Amazon Music $0.00 Free Listen Now No membership required Tens of thousands of podcasts Listen in the app or on any Alexa device Listen with Audible App All Episodes (162) Sara Gonzalez (Lewis) joins us on SWE for a long chat about a past relationship that took a crazy turn. So.What Else? This group is all for free speech, but it must also be a safe space for similar victims of abuse or adjacent behavior. I realize thats not fair to them- it shows a lack of respect for their ability to make room for me in their lives and its not fair to anyone who needs the encouragement. Was recently suggested the podcast Something was Wrong by a good friend, and wow is it GOOD! People will have opinions on your storyand you might not like all of those opinions. If you could see what I see. Discount automatically applied at checkout, Book Review: A Story of Alcoholism, Pain, and Hope after Loss. Aside from writing, music, Frenchie videos and seeing the world, I also love learning about how to care for my health naturally. linktr.ee/spaceandpurpose ), Through that book, God mended me in ways I never expected and might previously have resisted had I not been desperate for something to tell me who I really was and why all of me was important. Stress, family drama, work, something was always burdening him. When it was clear we were spiraling out of control, in His consistency God abided by His own rules and sent someone without sin to shed blood for us, so we wouldnt have to keep sacrificing flawless animals the Old Testament way to approach Him. 1. So He can enjoy us again as shimmering reflections of Him as we were in the beginning: beautiful and unashamed. The next, they were idiots. There was a particularly dramatic night where he was driving up for the weekend, and my roommate and I were in my car on our way back home to meet him with movie night snacks. In past blog sites I wrote about random funny stories or my process with the Lord, but I started this page while recovering from narcissistic and sociopathic abuse. Fall has always been a favorite. I remember being thoroughly convinced of my incapability, frustrated to the point of tears when my music teachers wouldnt believe my arguments. If you can never get enough true crime Congratulations, youve found your people. I can see why people write the whole thing off, especially after hearing about how I allowed my dog to be treated. When we were Voxing in the car and you were with your roommate, I could hear the happiness in your voice. Its a lighthearted nightmare in here, weirdos! Enjoy it., It wasnt until my vocal instructor countered my argument of the day with a phrase that rang in my ears for years to follow: You need to get over yourself.. Requires subscription and macOS 11.4 or higher. Regardless of sexual orientation or life goals, I think women want to know if they are needed and desired while simply being. Something Was Wrong is an Iris Award-winning true-crime docuseries about the discovery, trauma, and recovery from shocking life events and abusive relationships. He didnt just splash those people; he completely drenched them and had to have ruined their days. 21-01-2019. Something Was Wrong. We would have this wedding. But that song that plays at the intro and the end. Weve been stretched thin, poked, prodded, pushed, provoked but not brought to our knees as a whole. Scripture says we were crucified with Christ and are new creations. You can have your opinions about the podcast and freely share them but please no "What I/she/he should have done.." narratives please. What will we attempt when we no longer see our lack, but His potential? (Im generalizing. r/podcasts: a subreddit to discover, discuss, and review podcasts with other podcast enthusiasts. Something Was Wrong is an immersive docuseries podcast about the discovery, trauma, and recovery from emotionally (and otherwise) abusive relationships. Clarity kept me focused and I knew what hed said. If we dont feel capable, there is Grace and we can ask for help! See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info. (Sometimes a ray of light just looks like a good lunch.). The blood Jesus shedcovers our sin andHe no longer sees it. Those that lacked depth or true relationship with God are lost and floundering. If you need any of these things, buckle up and get comfy cause Im setting aside this post for some very personal comparisons to research Ive been doing. The story is told on a podcast called Something Was Wrong. ), and have loved it . Our minds are incredible in their design when it comes to trauma. But I thought this was it I think, and try to control my reaction and feel guilty for expressing my disappointment to the Lord. Lol. Unraveling situations and scenarios over the past 9 months has brought so much peace. I thought they were deleting all comments identifying him? The police have you surrounded. Its fine, Ill just spend the weekend at home. More and more of us are waking up at our own pace, shaking off the itll go back to normal soon complacency that gives us permission to coast through times of unrest and wait it out.. Analyzing every response, I got very quiet and in my head. Only when that phrase appears on page 3. Once we were alone in my room I asked what was going on. Join the something was wrong Facebook to learn about him. He finally has our full attention. Eight days out, I was ready to move forward at full speed, thinking a wedding was the answer to serious problems. Let me recklessly forget about my weakness as my awareness of Your strength grows. Neither can you. The more examples he gave, the more memories came back. I was simply drawn to it. Until one week before their wedding when she learned - something was wrong. For fans of the podcast, Something Was Wrong, you may recognize Sara from Season 1. He would shed actual tears when we would sit together watching movies or just cuddling on the couch, and I would think geez how damaged are you that this moment means this much? Something in my gut turned. I opened my Bible and was just kinda flitting through Isaiah with these but where is the joy, God? thoughts, and my eyeballs landed on Isaiah 55:12. In public, he was extremely high-energy and intense. Now is not the time to wait for one to reveal itself- you probably know exactly what it is, and that surely not that thought probably suffocating you right now as you read this is the one you need to act on right now. 2. Calling them accomplices in the oppression of a victim and pointing out that theyre devaluing the victims life in favor of the abusers might get me some backlash and Im just not ready or qualified to enter that ring.). Their stories will be told in an episodic format meaning more inspiring stories and less cliffhangers. See historical chart positions, all 199 episodes, and more. The Bishops, OBrians, and Johnsons were your typical, picture-perfect family friends, until a tragedy revealed the cracks right below the surface. I get being close with your family, but man goodness, cut the cord already. I want my friends to feel safe. I love scenes in movies that enter the main characters point of view and suddenly that church choir is looking directly at them, pigeoned there in the pews, belting WRITE THE THIIIIIIINGS! They only met the abuser because I was pregnant. Soon after I get that thing, I go on my merry way and get busy. There used to be a grating feeling in my gut that I was destined to attend womens luncheons and exchange flower pots until a young single pastor arrived and gave me my purpose. What a messy time to be alive.). As Iridian begins her new job, the workplace gossip and odd interactions circle closer and closer to home. The loosey-goosey-ness has been humbling and revealing. The survivor stories are brave and valuable, but the hosts commentary at the top of episodes is downright irresponsible. I usually tap my fingers nervously, hoping I dont have to get loud for the truth thats screaming in my head to be heard or to make myself seen in order for what I know is the right thing to get done. Calabasas is a quiet, well-to-do California town often referred to as "The Bubble.". Although I sort of saw the humor in it (because I was open & trusted where I stood with him), looking back, it made me feel hurt, insecure and confused around how to play along. 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